Happy?

Has it ever happened to you before that you wake up, but you only sort of wake up, so you can see, but there are still sounds and voices in your head?

Well, it happens to me ALL the time. It's mostly conversations between me and an unknown. It never lasts long; I say something, they say something, or vice versa and that's it.

Yesterday morning was...kinda different.

"You're a really happy person."

"Huh. I've...never been called that before.."

It was interesting, but I didn't pay much mind to it..till later.

Now, let me just say that I sometimes can rely on dreams to foreshadow or predict something that happens in the near future. They're confusing that way. They aren't just symbols of your everyday life, and they are NOT just nonsense the brain makes up. It's illogical.

For example, at the end of senior year (May or June), I had a dream with the color red in it. Red can represent passion or rage usually, but other times it means danger or warning. That day we had a Physics test, and as it turned out, it could be a partner test. Relieving? Not when you're paired with the ONLY person who wasn't here that day. See, that red could have easily been warning me of this debacle.

Now, back to yesterday's note. The word 'happy' seemed to be in my head for most of the morning. On the bus on the way to Lighting class, I saw a bus booth with a sign advertising Holiday coffee for free (ick). Spelled in coffee beans on the sign was this message: BE HAPPY. Coincidence?

Well, on the way back I happened to look up and see a billboard for D'Amico's with the same message--BE HAPPY. 

It was...really strange.

Those signs were there before; I'm sure of it. But I didn't see them before that day. I don't think it was a coincidence. I don't know. 

Those messages caused something to happen inside me. I had stopped wearing crazy stupid eye makeup the day before. I went to work and I decided to be smiley and happy and to be confident and stand up straight and make better eye contact. 

It wasn't do busy and everyone was happy and laughing and joking, including me. It's been a while, if ever, since I was that happy at work. I was making the biggest effort I could. 

All I can hope for is that this keeps up, and that this mysterious conversation in my head was a well needed one. Of course, I can't be like this all the time, but maybe I can really try to hide it and come off as a sincerely...happy person.

What wonders it may do.